Isabelle Tara’s Birth

Today is Belle’s due date. If everything had gone according to plan, she would’ve been born today. I can’t believe she’s already 16 days old!

Many people have asked me why I had her early. Some people (whose name I won’t name but you know who you are 😉 believe I pulled her out early so she could be an Aries. Even I wouldn’t be quite so crazy!

It all started with my prenatal checkup on Thursday, April 15th. The doctor told me I was GBS positive – I had strep bacteria in my birth canal. I ran home and did the research and learned that there was a chance that, if my water broke, she could become infected and this bacteria can lead to meningitis and brain damage.

Having already gone through meningitis with one child, and knowing all of the things that CAN go wrong, I started feeling insecure with keeping Belle inside my body. Belle and I have already gone through enough:

First, I was told that Belle never developed, that she was a blighted ovum and I’d had a miscarriage: A Rough Patch. It turns out the doctor was on crack and it was way too early to hear the heartbeat.

Then I went to Chile and got ecoli infection and ended up hospitalized for 4 days. Of course I was terrified that she had acquired some form of damage from this experience.

Then I had terrible contractions when I missed my flight from Chile to Colombia in December. Another terrible trauma.

When I finally got home to LA and went to see the high risk doctor, I was told she had a defect in her heart and that this was a possible indicator for Down Syndrome. Having gone through what I’ve been through with Nathan, I know I would warmly welcome a baby with any condition, so I didn’t suffer from this news. However, it was a source of worry and tough to think about.

So having gone through all of these issues with Belle’s pregnancy, when I heard I was GBS positive, a part of me felt afraid to continue to keep her in my body. I spent that whole night awake, praying, wondering what the right course of action was. I felt ready for her to come. I felt terrible fear that something would go wrong with the delivery. All of a sudden I didn’t have confidence in my body’s ability to protect her – my body felt like her greatest threat. Every ounce of intuition told me that it was time for her to come.

My night of prayer confirmed that it was the right choice. I was ready to go on Friday, but decided to wait until Saturday to give myself time to feel secure in my decision. Friday I prayed and prayed, and still felt ready.

Saturday we woke up early and made our way to the hospital at 7 am. I hadn’t talked to the doctor so he had no idea what I was planning. I simply showed up at the hospital and told them I was ready to have my daughter. The nurses almost laughed and me and told me it was almost certain the doctor would send me home. At that point I offered it up to God – if it was the right time for Belle, I knew he would make it happen. And if it wasn’t, I would be okay going home and waiting.

At 9 am the nurses called the doctor. At 9:30 they came to tell me the doctor had agreed to do the C-section that day, and that he would do it sometime after 10 am. At that point it was just me at the hospital, Owen and Nathan were having breakfast and my family hadn’t arrived.

Owen and Nathan showed up at 10:30 am. At 10:45 the nurses popped in and said, “are you ready to have your baby??!!”. I couldn’t believe it was happening so fast!!! I thought I would have hours and hours of waiting!

I called my mom and she hadn’t even left her house at that point. Which meant I would have to go in for surgery alone so Owen could stay with Nathan. At that point I started shaking. What have I done, I’m not ready for this, what have I done, oh my god oh my god oh my god. But there was no turning back.

At 11am on the DOT the doctor showed up at the surgery room. I was already prepped for surgery. At 11:15 the started the anesthesia. And at 11:20 one of the nurses saw me there, shaking and crying, and decided to go outside and watch Nathan so Owen could come inside the operating room. Owen came in and I grabbed on to his hands for dear life, and oh, the comfort I felt from his presence! The moment he walked in I knew everything would be okay. Within 5 minutes I heard Owen say, they’re reaching in! And 3 minutes after that I heard a very angry howl. Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! At 11:28 am Isabelle was born with a roar.

The anesthesiologist, who knew about the risk of Down Syndrome, immediately came to me and said, I see no markers for DS, your baby looks perfectly healthy. They took her away to examine her, and all the while I was laying there, gutted, asking them to bring my baby. They took several minutes before they finally brought her to me and I absolutely melted the moment I saw her and touched her little face. Love at first sight X 3.

My mother arrived at that moment so she took care of Nathan while Owen cut the baby’s cord and while they put me back together. And the rest is history. I went to the recovery room and they wanted to keep her in the nursing station for a few hours. I demanded they bring her to me instantly and we’ve been inseparable since 😉

After an eventful pregnancy, I finally got to meet and glorify in my little princess’ presence. Was it right for me to pull her out early? It was right for me. I don’t regret it. And I am thrilled to have had 2 weeks with her already.

Belle is thriving. She is eating well. She is growing. She could smile from the first day she was born. She has already chuckled several times – I have witnesses. She smiles if you oogle at her and no, it’s not gas – she smiles appropriately. When she’s hungry, she just gives us ONE very high pitched shrill scream. She’s only cried a few times since her birth – she’s a very content baby. She eats well, sleeps well, and is a total cuddle bag – she loves sleeping in mommy and daddy’s arms. She’s already a daddy’s girl – the moment she hears his voice she starts looking for him and will wake right up so they can hang out. Owen holds her in his arms and walks around and shows her everything. She loves her time with him. Even though she’s so young, I already know so much about Belle – she is sassy, sweet, peaceful, and very happy!

The beautiful photos of Belle were taken by Nathalie Seguin. As you can see, she’s an absolutely FABULOUS photographer. If anyone lives in the LA area and is looking for a great photographer – look no further!

Comments

  1. Love the photos and so glad everything worked out just fine 🙂

  2. Beautiful. I am so happy everything turned out so well. Enjoy your baby!

  3. http://Laura says

    What a beautiful princess!!! What an incredible mommy she has! I hope you are feeling better. May God keep blessing your beautiful family!

  4. OMGOSH what a cutie and love the pictures. I always wanted to get “little” pictures of Vera but with all the problems we were having with Ryland we just couldn’t get it done. I hope all goes good with Nathan and the baby, Ryland still doesn’t care much for her.lol Vera is now, most nights, sleeping all night, unlike her brother, Ryland will sleep 4 hrs wake up and then we have to try to put him back to sleep, doesn’t always work, gotta love 3am parties. Take care and I hope your c-s is doing better, you sure look great.

  5. http://Cathy%20Jordan says

    Love the post! She is so beautiful and perfect and so is her birth story! She looks so much like Nathan’s baby pics. I got your email…my boys are great! Owen got tubes in his ears today and he’s wonderful already. Will is on my lap…ready for bed! I hope you’re feeling better. I had a c-section w/ Owen and it was so painful. We get to see Wes and Michal and their girls in June in GA. We haven’t seen them in three years, so we are so excited! Take care!

  6. The pictures are gorgeous. I can’t get over how much she looks like Owen.

    You know, if having her a little early was what you needed, then good for you. You’ve been through enough and I’m sure the doctor would have refused if he thought it was dangerous.

  7. http://Cybell says

    Belle está preciosa!!!!
    Esta resumida historia de la llegada de Belle a este mundo ha sido maravillosa,ya que una vez mas me doy cuenta que aunque hayan una y mil pruebas y muchos diágnosticos médicos,situaciones adversas, momentos tensos y quizás muy complicados,con este testimonio queda claro que Dios siempre tiene la última palabra y que todo esta sujeto a su voluntad,creo que Belle nació en el momento que ella estaba preparada y gracias a Dios todo salió bién, te felicito por todos los momentos que pasaste en este embarazo,ya que siempre confiaste y te mantuviste con mucha tranquilidad y paz,y el resultado esta acá con una preciosa niña saludable,y cada dia mas hermosa,tengo que decir que las fotografias están preciosas se vén muy unidas las dos(me encanta ver a Nathan con su hermanita….mmm comiendole su manito???),Belle es una niña muy amada!!!!
    Un abrazo.

  8. http://karym says

    Me encanta verlas tan unidas, y esta pequeña gran historia lo resume todo, en definitiva, tenemos a una gran princesita entre nosotros y que es tan amada por sus padres y familia y ademas de todas tus amistades alrededor del mundo!!!. Belle, te miro y me das una tranquilidad enorme, me entregas paz y estoy segura que todo eso lo estas recibiendo de tu querida mamá, ahora solo a esperar que ya creceras y con tu hermanito mayor harán más de alguna travesura!!!. Amiga los quiero mucho, un gran abrazo y las fotos….., no tengo palabras, están lindísimas!!!. Besitos a mi niñito hermoso, el video del triciclo es genial!!!, vamos Nathan, te queda todo el verano para salir a pasear!!!, Besos

  9. Wow, am I behind. Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful baby girl, she is so precious. You must all be so happy. Nathan will make a great big brother.

  10. http://Nati says

    Hi Marce!!!!! Congratulations, Belle is beautiful! I’d love to meet both of your babies (It’s embarassing that I still haven’t met Nathan!!). I’m sure you are super busy now getting adjusted to a new baby in the house…but let me know when you get settled. I’d love to come by and visit you. I’d love for James to meet his cousins!

    Love & miss you!!!!
    xoxo,
    Nati

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