Sometimes I wonder if you’all think I’m bipolar or schizophrenic or something like that…because one day I feel total peace, the next I’m a nervous wreck, the next I feel perfect acceptance for Nathan and his situation, the next I am on a plane to BoraBora for a new miracle treatment
The thing is…this journey is INTENSE! And I feel that a big part of why Nathan is in this world is to TEACH. He is here to teach the world, especially me, to accept situations and people just they are, to see beyond the exterior, to experience the silence of your mind so you can hear others talking directly to your heart, not to be materialistic, to value every moment of life with all of it’s gifts, to see beyond life at what’s eternal and live our life not for today but for that future.
And I am a committed student. I WANT to learn with all of my heart. I want him to change me. I pray that every day, every month, every year, I am a more loving, more caring person just for having Nathan in my life.
And just as with any journey, you go up and down and around and you plateau and you fall and you climb. Such are my emotions as I live this journey as intensely and deeply and open-heartedly as I possibly can.
So the next time you think of calling a mental institution after reading my blog…just picture me climbing a mountain taller and more luscious and more beautiful than Mt. Everest!